Dear Cassidy, yesterday you turned 18 years old. In the eyes of the world this will make you legally an adult. You will have new choices to make, new paths to follow and dreams to catch in your net like butterflies passing on the wind. To the world you may be seen as an adult but to me you will always be my baby, my first love, my heart, my little girl, a beautiful young woman, a part
of me that no one can ever take away. From the moment you were given life until the end of time and evermore you will be my child. When I am 100 and you are 80 and we have forgotten in our old age who is the mother and who is the daughter I
will still be your mother and you will still be my baby. I was 20, not much older than you, when you entered my life physically. Before that, for nine months you had been a dream, a wish, a prayer, real yet still unreal, a whisper of the future, a physical part of my body, flesh of my flesh that can never be
undone. You are the reason I decided to grow up. You are the reason a girl became a woman. Not because I gave physical birth to you. Giving birth does not make you a woman or a momma. Please always remember that. If I have taught you anything this I have and I want you to never forget it. You will not completely
understand it until someday you have a child of your own. As a woman I understood the responsibility of having a child. I wanted to be the very best mother that had ever been or ever will be. I wanted to be the woman that taught you everything. I have always prayed I was an example of a woman that you could rise up and call blessed. Not for selfish reasons or pride but because I wanted to be a Godly example for you. I held you in my arms, tears streaming down my
cheeks, within moments of your birth. The entire world was shown to me in your tiny face. I even said to the doctor, "I am holding the entire world in my hands at this moment." I fell in love with you then and I am still in love with you now. Cassidy, God answers prayers. When you are at the end of your rope and feel you have no where to turn, please remember what I have tried so hard to teach you, God is always there. You are never alone. It is my prayer now that you will continue on the path we have traveled together. Lean on God for everything. Seek his will. He will never leave you. You have grown into a responsible, moral young woman who will someday be an awesome wife and mother. The man who wins your heart will have the greatest treasure known to mankind. I hope you choose well. We have often talked about this and I believe as I think you do, God has been preparing the perfect man for you. He has been grooming him all these years. Do not be in a hurry to get married and have children. In His perfect time the man of your dreams, the man worthy of you will come along. Please do not let him pass you by. Time passes quickly as we grow older but I remember as if it were just yesterday everything about you. Birth and crying all night.Tea parties and baby dolls. Dress-up and lipstick. School books and pony tails. Piano essons and school bus stops. Make-up and perfume. Sunday school and
summer camp. Salvation and baptism. Homeschool and baby sisters. Good times and
bad. We have been through them all together. We have so much more to do ogether. I am so sorry for things in the past. I want to thank you. Thank you
for being the most perfect daughter a parent could ask for. Thank you for being
the example of everything a sister should be. Your footsteps will be the guide
for your five younger siblings. During the times when we had nothing except each
other thank you for helping me. Thank you for digging in, for using up and
wearing out, without ever complaining. Thank you for trusting me. Thank you for
being my daughter. I have often played this day out in my mind. What will I say
to you that will give you the confidence you need to take the step forward, away
from me and into your own world that you create. This is all I have ever been
able to think of: I love you. I have always loved you. I will always love you. I
love who you are. I love everything about you. As long as there is breath in me
I will be here for you. Never hesitate to come to me. Nothing you can ever say
will change my love for you. Perhaps we may not always agree. You have your own
life to create. Regardless of your choices I will always be here, waiting,
watching and loving you, just as I have every moment of your life, from your
very first breath. There is a poem that I have lived as my motto. Do you
remember it? Cleaning and Scrubbing Can wait till tomorrow For babies grow up We
learn to our sorrow. Settle down cobwebs, Dust go to sleep I'm rocking my baby
'Cause babies don't keep. Every word is truth. You didn't keep. You grew up.
What a beautiful moment I have been blessed to witness. My mother never
understood how or why I could leave dishes in the sink and laundry in the
basket, forgettting them so that I could play with you. She never understood how
a bed could be left unmade and the carpet not vacuumed every single day. I hope
when you have your own children you will remember those little words and you
will forget about your chores for the moment and spend those minutes sharing,
caring, loving your own children. Dishes can be washed and laundry can be folded
after little ones go to sleep. When the time is gone you can never get it back.
I hope you will never get so wrapped up in the details of living that you forget
how to live your life for every moment. So on today, this is my wish for you:
May you find the path that leads you to the life you want. May you find the
courage and the strength to create the world you want to live in. May you find
true love and happiness in one man who deserves you. May you have children who
rise up and call you blessed. Happy Birthday, my darling girl. Love, Momma
of me that no one can ever take away. From the moment you were given life until the end of time and evermore you will be my child. When I am 100 and you are 80 and we have forgotten in our old age who is the mother and who is the daughter I
will still be your mother and you will still be my baby. I was 20, not much older than you, when you entered my life physically. Before that, for nine months you had been a dream, a wish, a prayer, real yet still unreal, a whisper of the future, a physical part of my body, flesh of my flesh that can never be
undone. You are the reason I decided to grow up. You are the reason a girl became a woman. Not because I gave physical birth to you. Giving birth does not make you a woman or a momma. Please always remember that. If I have taught you anything this I have and I want you to never forget it. You will not completely
understand it until someday you have a child of your own. As a woman I understood the responsibility of having a child. I wanted to be the very best mother that had ever been or ever will be. I wanted to be the woman that taught you everything. I have always prayed I was an example of a woman that you could rise up and call blessed. Not for selfish reasons or pride but because I wanted to be a Godly example for you. I held you in my arms, tears streaming down my
cheeks, within moments of your birth. The entire world was shown to me in your tiny face. I even said to the doctor, "I am holding the entire world in my hands at this moment." I fell in love with you then and I am still in love with you now. Cassidy, God answers prayers. When you are at the end of your rope and feel you have no where to turn, please remember what I have tried so hard to teach you, God is always there. You are never alone. It is my prayer now that you will continue on the path we have traveled together. Lean on God for everything. Seek his will. He will never leave you. You have grown into a responsible, moral young woman who will someday be an awesome wife and mother. The man who wins your heart will have the greatest treasure known to mankind. I hope you choose well. We have often talked about this and I believe as I think you do, God has been preparing the perfect man for you. He has been grooming him all these years. Do not be in a hurry to get married and have children. In His perfect time the man of your dreams, the man worthy of you will come along. Please do not let him pass you by. Time passes quickly as we grow older but I remember as if it were just yesterday everything about you. Birth and crying all night.Tea parties and baby dolls. Dress-up and lipstick. School books and pony tails. Piano essons and school bus stops. Make-up and perfume. Sunday school and
summer camp. Salvation and baptism. Homeschool and baby sisters. Good times and
bad. We have been through them all together. We have so much more to do ogether. I am so sorry for things in the past. I want to thank you. Thank you
for being the most perfect daughter a parent could ask for. Thank you for being
the example of everything a sister should be. Your footsteps will be the guide
for your five younger siblings. During the times when we had nothing except each
other thank you for helping me. Thank you for digging in, for using up and
wearing out, without ever complaining. Thank you for trusting me. Thank you for
being my daughter. I have often played this day out in my mind. What will I say
to you that will give you the confidence you need to take the step forward, away
from me and into your own world that you create. This is all I have ever been
able to think of: I love you. I have always loved you. I will always love you. I
love who you are. I love everything about you. As long as there is breath in me
I will be here for you. Never hesitate to come to me. Nothing you can ever say
will change my love for you. Perhaps we may not always agree. You have your own
life to create. Regardless of your choices I will always be here, waiting,
watching and loving you, just as I have every moment of your life, from your
very first breath. There is a poem that I have lived as my motto. Do you
remember it? Cleaning and Scrubbing Can wait till tomorrow For babies grow up We
learn to our sorrow. Settle down cobwebs, Dust go to sleep I'm rocking my baby
'Cause babies don't keep. Every word is truth. You didn't keep. You grew up.
What a beautiful moment I have been blessed to witness. My mother never
understood how or why I could leave dishes in the sink and laundry in the
basket, forgettting them so that I could play with you. She never understood how
a bed could be left unmade and the carpet not vacuumed every single day. I hope
when you have your own children you will remember those little words and you
will forget about your chores for the moment and spend those minutes sharing,
caring, loving your own children. Dishes can be washed and laundry can be folded
after little ones go to sleep. When the time is gone you can never get it back.
I hope you will never get so wrapped up in the details of living that you forget
how to live your life for every moment. So on today, this is my wish for you:
May you find the path that leads you to the life you want. May you find the
courage and the strength to create the world you want to live in. May you find
true love and happiness in one man who deserves you. May you have children who
rise up and call you blessed. Happy Birthday, my darling girl. Love, Momma
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